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I Can’t Graduate This March

I heard that college life was the worst stage in studying. Well, I guess not and I guess so.

School year 2010-2011 was my first year in college and I enrolled as a student of Bachelor of Elementary Education Major in Content Courses, which means that I have to teach kids. It was hard for me to pursue that thing because I don’t really liked my major. I passed the Qualifying Exam for Sophomores with that major but then I really want Biology. What I did was a great turning point for me that time – I turned down the major and joined the students who failed to take a retake examination. The good news after almost six months was that I passed the Biological Sciences Major.

Being aware of the risks and consequences of college life, I prepared myself that I have to stay in college for five years and I have to be an Irregular Student for more than half of my stay! At first, it was so depressing because I have to plead for teachers to allow me to take their classes, face the terror registrar personnel and expect low grade. But I was wrong. That irregularity brought me to a new horizon. I didn’t regret my decision of shifting my major. I gained new friends from different year levels and field of majors, I was even recognized by certain loving and true teachers. Those teachers motivated me to be strong despite I can’t graduate this March. They gave me advices and ‘personal touch’ in my teaching practices and attitudes.

I cannot forget my classmates who were also my friends. There were times that I’d rather want to go to school rather than to go hoe because of them. I know they’ll be leaving but there will be some who will be left just like me but will still be happy. March will always be there and I know I’ll graduate soon. I will be just a step behind them and later on I’ll leap to get ahead and be happier than this.

Don't Go

Don’t Go

Title: Don’t Go
Author: jessasmiley
Genre: Angst, Romance
Length: Three Shots + Prologue
Pairing: Kai (EXO) and Krystal Jung (FX)
Word Count: 688

[Prologue: empty vase]

The scent of roses filled the empty room, and he liked it. It was like a drug making him addicted every second he inhales it. His nostrils didn’t get tired of the same whiff he smelled a month ago. Missing that scent so bad made him enjoy the pleasant sensation it gave him. The closed lone window made the smell a prisoner, never letting it out. He bent his knees down on the dust-covered cement that is as cold as ice. He felt alone the very moment his palm touched the floor. The cold feeling instantly reached his heart then went out in his eyes as a saline body fluid. He just cannot bear it, he never can and he never did.

“Kai, are you there?”

There was a continuous knocking on the door. He immediately wiped his tears then stood up. He walked towards the door and opened it but none of his feet stepped out of the room. It was Jean standing in front of him. She was holding in her right hand a large blue paper bag that he doesn’t know the contents. He didn’t notice Jean brought that when they entered the house a few minutes ago.

“We need to leave now come on,” she said as her eyes focused on her brother’s tired looking face. His eye sockets got deeper and the dark circle below it became more obvious, and his sharp jawline even became more prominent and striking – evidences of sleeplessness and weight loss. She pitied him for that.

“Do we really need to? Jean?” His tone was higher than the usual. His eyes were questioning too.

“Yes. This is not our house and no longer hers. I got what I need,” she said as she slightly lifted the paper bag. “Hurry up, I’ll be waiting outside,” then she turned her back and walked away.

He watched her leave until he can no longer see her back.  The behavior her sister showed has reminded him of the person who used to occupy that now empty room – lifting whatever is in her hands then saying ‘hurry up’. He wondered if his sister did that on purpose because she never acted like that before.

Kai just stood there and didn’t move. The door hanged half open in front of him. He used to enter that room before but just once. Of all places, it was the last place he would like to go to but he’s standing inside it now.

He could just remember few details of that room. There was a self-portrait of the owner that used to hang on the white walls of the room. The pink cylindrical porcelain vase on the bedside table was filled with fresh roses picked from the garden pots outside the house, and most importantly, there was a beautiful girl lying on the bed when he entered that room four weeks ago.

“Four weeks ago,” he murmured to himself as he held the doorknob.

“So it’s been that long but you still haven’t showed yourself? Why? Are you hiding from me? You even took all your things and left without a word. You didn’t even told my sister.”

Kai bent his head slowly. “She was your best friend but you—” his voice cracked and gasped.

He felt the sudden pain in his inner chest. He was feeling it again and it hurts more than before. His grip to the knob became tighter. “Ugh, I shouldn’t be here in the first place. I’m leaving,” he said as if there was someone listening to him.“I brought you some roses. Your vase was empty so I just put it there.” Kai held his chest and clutched his clothing near his chest. “Please come back before they wither,” a tear fell from his eyes.

He took a deep breath and made his way outside the room. At his last glimpse, Kai saw the roses he left on the vase at the bedside table. He closed the door and went away. But there was one thing he didn’t notice – a lone synthetic rose hidden beneath the real ones.